Too much to say,

Assalamualaikum and happy holiday people. :)

It has been a few moths since I've posted the last entry. As always, I am reading your posts but I didn't left any trace. I hope everyone reading this will have a good and healthy life. InsyaAllah.

Since I've never post anything, it doesn't meant I have nothing to say. Actually I have too much to say. But I don't know to who and when or where or what it is. Every time I was thinking, I wanted to write it in blog but when it comes to elaborate, I was lost. That is why no more post around this few months. Or else, I was fine. Completely fine. I guess.

Have you ever heard about 49 Days? It is a Korean drama. My friend suggested to me to watch the drama. At first, it seems to be boring. Like always, it turns better for the next few episodes. My highlight is about the moral of the drama. You should watch it. Then you can think about your life. Do everyone around you love you like you do? Or did.

Oh, don't misunderstood. I am talking about the drama. 49 Days. It's about a girl dying and she has a second chance to live. But the condition is, she have to collect three tears. 100% sincere loving her. From the first she was very excited to accept the treasure. She thinks all people around her are good and nice. But at last she found that even her best friend and fiance are back stabbers. Can you imagine that?

We can't trust all people around us. Sometimes, the one that we think hate us is the most sincere liking us. It can be turn out that way, for some reasons that we ever known. Like my previous entry, we HAVE to treat people equally. Never ever biased or one-sided. This is how we live. But it can't be that way, right? :)

Can you read this? --->

Do you know what it's mean? Do you any feeling for not having BEST FRIEND by your side? Even they are with you, the are not actually with you. It is tiring to not tell a person what did you feel, what had happen to you, or what you had archived. Or they are beside you but they were not listening to you. People get annoyed easily btw. I guess you never ever have those feeling. It is good then. ♥

Continue about the drama,

She appears in front of her friends and family without they knowing it. From there, she can know the their true colors. Even this is nonsense, but we can take it as a value. We can't ever know about what actually happens behind us. What will you expect from that? We don't know how sincerely they are to us. Our friends, our classmates, our schoolmates and anyone. It is very hard to find those people who are really liking us without any conditions. HARD.

Alone.

Nice quote right? ♥

Can you choose who will make you happy? Can you choose who will love you? Can you choose who want to be with you? CAN YOU? Speechless. Hm. It seems like I can't choose. Because I feel everyone makes me happy when I am with them. I guess so. I guess. I guess. Sometime, we have to impress people cause not always people will make us happy. Not always. But yet, it is our choice to choose.

The feel of being alone, it can't be described. The persons are just talking to themselves. Thinking of nothing. The problems never be solved. There is too much to say, ..

Dear god, please send me happiness before I have to close my eyes for forever. That's it.

HIJAB

In one evening, i had a conversation with mama,

Me : Mama, adik nak pi usrah la.

Mama : Usrah mana?

Me : Usrah kat sini la, smart group.

Mama : Ada geng ka?

Me : Ada la sorang kawan adik, Zima.

Mama : Ha, pi la.

Me : Tapi kan, segan la. Depa semua pakai tudung labuh.

Mama : Tak kan semua tudung labuh kot?

Me : Yalah, tudung semua sampai siku. Malu la.

Mama : Mai mama pos tudung mama, mau dak?

Me : Err, tak mau lah. Segan. :|

Mama : Pakai la labuh sikit, senget pun adik pakai tudung.

Me : Tutup dada la jugak. -_-

Mama : Takpa, pakai labuh sikit. Start la warna basic dulu. Warna hitam ka putih ka.

Me : Huu tengok dulu.

Today, i already opened a new book to write about my life. It is a step forward like my words yesterday. Even I know it will not last, but better something than nothing right? :)

Today's class begin with TITAS (Tamadun Islam & Tamadun Asia) and Ustaz didn't come to the class. We'll feel upset as there wasn't any notice. Or maybe because it was raining, perhaps. But I think it should not be an excuse to not attend the class. After blablabla with friends, i went to ladies and i saw one of my classmate was taking her wudhu'. She wanted to pray Dhuha. I followed her to surau. And I saw her.

While waiting, i was thinking myself. She can pray even without wearing telekung. Why? Because she covered her aurat. The aurat is enough covered if you can pray with what you wear. As we know, telekung is not compulsory. Its about aurat. My heart beats loudly. The screenshot appeared on my mind. Again I remembered about the last days. I used to be like her, but not now. ..

The intention is very important. At least. At least you have the intention to be better. It is good enough for the first step. Like a baby. They can't run without trying to walk. It same goes to us. To be the best, we should be good-better-best. :) Step by step we will make a move.

Islam sebagai ad-deen.

Remember the quote. Its not from me, not from books. It's from Allah. We ere His slave. We must follow. We are Muslims. We must take Islam entirely not semi-ly. I'm not good enough to ask people to be better. Because I know who I am. But I want it. This is not riak, this is a mission.We must tell people so it will a booster for you to reach the target. Allah will not only see the result, in fact He also see the effort. Everyone can be good, but not all can istiqamah. ♥

HIJAB is not only about wearing scarf and covering aurat. Hijab means protector, security of the woman. Take it as an advantage to be the world's most beautiful jewelry. Wanita adalah hiasan dunia. Dan sebaik-baik hiasan adalah wanita solehah. :) 

The-second-day,

Oh it is the-second-day without him. Without calling him. Without sms-ing him. Without chatting with him. Without skype-ing with him. Such a not bad day i guess. Can we continue being like this? Since you're pretty happy with your friends and games, lemme be alone for a while. So that i can hate you more and more until i beg you for no more. :) This is what you want i think. 

Boys.

Always want freedom. Being the coolest. Buy the expensive stuffs. Act like a man. Do anything and make others proud. And feel the world is theirs.

Girls.

I want love. :\

Better to live on your own,

Live a better life, Hana. The journey is too way long for you to stop now. Nothing could change the luck that you have. Even with your name. There is nobody for you to trust anymore. Just move a step forward and you'll see the kindness of the earth to you.

Everyone needs God. Everyone needs family. Everyone needs friends. Everyone needs money.

Peace. That is something somebody can't have or can't even know whats it mean. And yes, Hana got her own peace. It is too peace to hear the tears drop. The life go silent.

The most precious the your life is family. nothing can bet it. It is fact.

You will share the happiness and the sadness of all your life with your family. They are the only persons for you to trust. If not them, who's then? Later you'll regret with what you've done to them. 

Frankly says that it is very tired to be used. To be nice as people always take advantages on you. Is there any rules to be good? Hell no. It is not to BE GOOD, but BE YOURSELF. You can attract people if you are NICE, but when you have NOTHING, you are INVISIBLE. Am I right? It's life. You'll be tired to be used, unless you're too naive that you always can be used. Like pepatah Melayu said, "Buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali". So, how to do? Follow the rules -->? Or just be yourself even you have to live on your own? Think.

College. Money. and Friends.

Three things that can't be separated. Is it true? Yes. No one can deny. What is your perception through these element? Bad? Or fun? :) Like I've said before, my best life was in Puncak Alam. And I even pray to be there again. We need them. Money and friends at college. But here, we'll find that there are many types of people around you until you can't even recognize which one is your friend.

Live on your own,

To laugh and to smile or to cry all by yourself. No one will know. Just be healthy and maintain a good mood. Pray hard and live smart. Never ever let people hurt you, or touch your heart. Prove to people you can do it with your capability. ♥

Built a castle in your mind and stay happy like nothing happend around you. Here, our love story begins. Never give up Hana! Move forward and never look back. :)

Farewell and say Hello ! :)

Assalamualaikum peeps. ;)


As i'm too long away from posting any entry so I have to say Hello I guess. ♥ How are you doing friends? Btw, even i'm not posting anything i'll still read almost all your post ; my friends. I just can't leave any footprint. Hehe


Farewell? Oh that's for Semester One actually. -_-" As i was too busy w/imagination, so all my post just stay in the draft because i can't even finished it. Okay, Semester One was a start i think. It was okay and it was bad. I thought it was EQUAL. As the conclusion, nothing can bet my Foundation Time. It was the best memory i ever had. :)


Forget about past? And live happily w/your future. I guess. But it is not easy as ABC. Even ABC is harder (in Digital System Fundamental subject). Haha Well i'm engineering student. So? -_-


Lets see what will happen in Semester Two. And and it started with tears. Um Um Hope for the best. Amin